Dress Code

Sticks and stone may break my bones...but then again they will heal with time if set right...but words can eat at me for years.

Sorry if my blogs tend to be negative, but I feel no need to write unless I'm confused or needing to vent these days! If things are going well then no blogs are written. But I guess this is kind of good?

So I've never really thought about my appearance much (just like I never really noticed race until middle school), and tended to wear whatever. But after much discrimination over the past what feels like year? I've started to conform.... Ever since I came to college I put a little more effort into my clothes (I actually take 5 minutes to look for something instead of just putting on whatever I grab) but this is still nothing in comparison to most other girls I guess? So after being teased about looking like a grandma, wearing baggy clothes, having no sense of fashion....my heart started to take it a little hard. I looked at other girls who do dress "nice" (insert envy) and thought that maybe they were somehow more important, were more attractive, or had more worth than me. After all who wants to hangout with a girl who looks all mismatched? It's embarrassing right?

Eh?!? I can't believe I even got caught up in those thoughts! I've never really struggled with appearance or body image because I think everyone's beautiful, and not to sound conceited but I love the body God gave me! Sure it came with collapsing arches and other things I have to deal with but overall I'm blessed to have 10 finger, 10 toes, and for the most part a functioning body. And beyond all that there's a heart, and person unique from everyone. Not just me, but each and every girl and guy out there so unique and beautiful in their body type, character, and yes fashion sense (or lack thereof) haha!

So after further review I decided if I wanted to wear nice things it would be because I wasn't trying to please others. Nor trying to please myself (vanity). There are things I could wear that would make me look nice, but I tend to not wear them. Why? I feel more down to earth and more available to a wider range of people when I dress shabby I guess. After all it's the people who dress nice and seem to have it all together that scare me the most. Soooo assuming there are others out there like me, looking for someone who appears to be a simpleton, who cares nothing about dress code but the heart...I'll keep wearing my baggy shirts and mismatched hand-me-down cloths :D

Discontent Heart

So recently I've been feeling a lot of discontent in where I'm at in serving the Lord. Not because He hasn't been working or I haven't been seeking Him, but because I'm comparing myself to others... and my flesh is desiring to be praised and lifted up. My heart should be glad when I see others advancing the gospel and I am, but I also begin to see myself or the ministry God has given me as less than worthy and I feel jealous of others. Seeing pictures all over facebook of them serving or bonding with others it makes me feel deficient. I remember reading about this discontentment in The Lords Work Done in the Lord's Way.

"Why Restless?
In the past, we have had a couple of families on staff with us who left the ministry because they were dissatisfied, feeling as though they were not doing what they considered "real" ministry...Please understand. It is good to long to serve God in the best way we can. But discontentment, discouragement, frustration and grumbling just because we don't like what the Lord gave us to do is not good. We must be able to discern between truly desiring to please the Lord and our own restlessness and self-seeking. We must be able to discern what is motivating us in the work of the Lord. A lot of times we can be pulled in many different directions by the needs around us. And we can like it too. The work of the Lord certainly has its satisfaction for the flesh. There is the crowd of people, the results, the praise, the attention and the "thank-yous" all of these can really make the flesh feel good. We definitely enjoy the attention, the limelight and the sense of accomplishment and self-worth that come in ministry. But we are called to in serving Him must be rooted in pleasing Him and done out of love for Him-not our own gratification and glory. It must be for His....But the truth is, we all have the same problem-wicked hearts. we'd rather be one of the priests who are busy standing before the people, active in what is immediately needed. We want our ministry to look dramatic and effective. Our flesh wants to glory in the praise of men....We shouldn't worry about how things look, what people might be saying, or whether or not there are the results we thought there would be. Our number-one concern must be to know Him and His ways and to follow His lead. When we live like this, what happens, whether good or bad in man's sight, whether productive or useless in man's opinion has no bearing. We are not working for human beings. We are doing it because of our love for Him. It is ministry unto Him, and this pleases Him. Please, we need to evaluate what our motive has been in serving the Lord. Are we seeking to meet the need around us, or are we seeking to know and please Him? Are we controlled, motivated and energized by our talents and by opportunities that present themselves? Do needs and others' voices guide our course? Or do we really know, in our innermost being, that we are serving our King? Ask yourself these questions."

Yea so after rereading that probably three times I've realized my flesh has been wanting glory and praise. I want to be placed in a position to be serving where everyone will see. But that's all for the wrong motivations. I shouldn't be like the Levites in Ezekiel 44, but like the house of Zadok who sit quietly before the Lord, ministering to Him and concerned with only pleasing Him. I need to serve with the right heart, and not look for praise. May my pride be crushed and all glory given where it truly belongs! I can't say let me serve where no one will see, because then I remove glory from God, so fix my heart.

Church Shopping Day 1: Antioch Church

WHOA JESUS WHOA!!! This is something that was just bursting in my head while I was at church this morning.

So recently I had a conversation with my dad about spiritual maturity. One of the things that really stuck with me was my lack of depth, commitment, and service within the church I'm attending. So I've been attending Grace Bible Church which I really liked, and it served me during that season in life. Now I want to be able to be living out my faith not just on campus or within AAIV but with a body of believers in the church. I thought about getting more involved with Grace but I feel like it's so big... I might still look into their ministries but I will see.

So in response to wondering about being involved in a church I decided I wanted to look into smaller churches. The list was two long: Life Church and Westminster Presbyterian. One being a nondenominational church and the other one I had attended for a semester and a half. My discipler Meghan went to Life Church and said lots of good things about it including their life groups, and I know that there is good teaching as well as Sunday school classes at Westminster. But out of nowhere I ended up last minute deciding to visit Antioch because Lori had wanted to visit it the end of spring semester. From her experience with a girl who attended the church I could tell they were being moved by the Holy Spirit, and I definitely got that today.

So me and Jeff went to the Hilton Hotel on University which is where the church meets and went in. The church was probably 50-70 people big but that's because a lot were gone on missions. The church seemed really close knit which was kind of sad for us since no one went out of their way to meet us. I wasn't in the mood of stepping up and introducing myself today either so we just sat down. Today's service was not a regular one and consisted on worship then a skype conference/joint prayer time.

At first the worship songs were not really touching me, because I didn't know any of them and they were all contemporary (I like hymns D:) but over time I began to realize a lot of the lyrics were pulled from scripture and as I sang could remember the context in which it came making the songs more beautiful and meaningful. The last song had parts of Isaiah and it was just beautiful! Everyone worships freely there too whether standing, sitting, kneeling, and throughout worship I saw a two girls stop and just turn to a girl next to them and pray over her. It was really cool. After worship we talked with a group in India from the church all in the college ministry. They have only been there 7 days and they have shared the gospel with over 2000 people. 2000 PEOPLE. Yea, I was just wow. They just went out and talked with people on the street, rickshaw drivers, a middle school assembly, etc. There was testimony of God giving clues of who to speak to and leading a team to a red shop full of tricycles to a lady dressed completely in teal. They found her and knew this was the lady God wanted them to talk to, and it turned out she was a believer who needed encouraging so they prayed over her. A praise to God who gives the gift of healing was a testimony of a man with a split open toe from a bike accident. A team member prayed over him and watched as the skin began to grow over the toe and heal. This is the power of our God. We all as a church stood and prayed asking for God to do even more. I wondered how we could ask this when He was already doing so much. But then I remember He is God, and we were asking for exactly what he wanted and He would deliver. A thing to pray for is that they would know who is coming to the Lord. The people they have met in India are very nice and receptive, but to the point in which they agree with everything you say. That has been one of the toughest parts of telling who are saved on the trip.

We then talked to the group in Gulu, Uganda and even more amazing testimonies were told. The group came in with a heart to reach those God had already been preparing and who were hungry. They found 7 believers there and have started discipleship with them and encouraging them to go out and share their faith with others. Two girls were witnessing at print shops and ran into a lady named Grace who was in school to be a social worker they shared Christ with her and she became excited and asked if they could come out to a sight where a lot of university students met. Over the past couple of days they have started home groups with the university students (kind of our equivalent to discipleship+small groups) and now those university students have a couple more weeks before they leave to return to university where they will share the gospel. We again prayed for this group and for God to keep moving.

Both teams still have 4 more days till they return, and I'm sure many thing will still happen.

After this we worshiped and church was over. It was probably the most intense 1 hour church service ever! My heart was so full and my amazement in the power of our God and the perseverance and love found in these people who traveled across the world to share. Their love, obedience, and faith in God and reliance on the Holy Spirit was just so amazing. I kind of sat there for a while taking it in, and decided I wanted to visit this church again to see what a regular service is like as well as their teaching. The thing about these type of churches is the services is not where you get the meat, its in their life groups which are the heart of the church. So me and Jeff picked up a thing on life groups which we might look into after next Sunday.

Information on their beliefs and missions:
http://www.antiochcs.org/#/beliefs-and-values

First leg

Yea Happy 3 week anniversary!!! Let's see how things are 3-weeks after this...

I don't know how detailed I shall be on progress reports since I'm still dealing with the internal turmoil. But otherwise I've gotten to where about 80% of the time I view my guy friends as brothers. On the other hand when I think about the future I just feel sad and lost because I don't really want to do what I'm trying to do with the whole dental school thing. Just because of it being very helpful and practical ...which makes me still empty feeling towards a boring future.

Otherwise besides that. finals is killing me slowly. I've become a hermit that doesn't want to talk to people. Bah! Can't wait till that's over so I can be FREE!!!

Sometimes you can't go on until you see the purpose in things. Since I can't really see a purpose or end I'm trying to get to, I just have to keep stepping little at a time and hope that the future will be good.

Cork the Bottle

Working on re-establishing trust. I tend to be a very reserved person around strangers, but very open around friends. One of my problems is I tend to say everything on my mind and heart which includes things that are not mine to share. It feels like there are a lot of thoughts and emotions I'm corking up, but that's what I got to do so I can regain trust.

Baaa!!! I hate keeping secrets!

Light

Have you ever had a friend tell you a miracle? Have you ever had to turn your eyes away while your friend spoke because they were shining with Christ so brightly that it hurt to look? Not from pain, but from the beauty of the Lord. Have you ever heard God speak through a friend that made you burst into uncontrollable tears? 

I never had until today. And I never want to forget the light, the beauty, and the soft voice that says "I love you". 

Happy Day! and sandwiches

Despite making the lowest Ochem grade I've ever made and losing my C back to a D today was GREAT!
I know that there is still a possibility for me to pass the class, so this door is still open and I'll keep fighting and studying if this is where God wants me to be. If I do fail, I'm not sure where to go from there...I'll have to retake the class :/ or figure out if this is where I should be going. Just found out Dental school is more competitive than Medical. And I feel Dental fits the lifestyle I want (be easier to take time out to take care of kids)...
Yes I gave up the idea of family and kids, but that's for now...Maybe when I'm out of college, but only then can even think about that!

Anyways away from that rant. I was reminded that my worth is not found in grades, and instead by the love my God has for me :) With that in mind my day was great! Got to meet Kitty, Mandy, and Robert on the band trip to Cameron. It made me remember high school and just feel so happy and free! Aww to just be a goofy silly girl again haha! It made me so happy to play for the small room of 80 people, consisting of elderly and just make music with nothing else to worry about! Can't wait for the band picnic, I wish I had taken time to get to know these people more and now there's no more band! Well there's always next semester :D

 Also I think I have lost weight from eating just sandwiches and pasta because my dress didn't really fit anymore. Guess I have to stop eating food and imagining it's something else O.O (like today pretending my sandwich was a pizza, or pretending my water was really sweet tea...) Must go to HEB and get more food with protein content versus this sad diet of carbohydrates >:(

*Yawn*

Waaa! Just 2 weeks of school left!! Can't wait till it ends :) It feels like school is draining me and what strength I have left. It takes more and more energy to not be tired and be excited. Can't wait till summer...haha not much of a break but I'll get to rest. Sorry if I fall asleep while you talk to me or look dead! Know I'm still alive and happy in there, it just requires too much energy and loss of energy causes me to crash.

Waaa back to Organic Chemistry D:< Still have that research paper to write after these OWLs. I really dislike that class...but it's still 10 million times better than physics.

Renewing My Mind

"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God-this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will." - Romans 12:1-2

Yesterday I was urged to make a sacrifice which I didn't want to do. The deepest part of my heart did not want to surrender up the fun easy way of life for the challenging, hard way of life God has been pushing me towards. My deepest desire has always been to have a family, be married, and have kids. And at the moment there were three doors that could have lead to that in the distant future. But I was clinging to the hope in those doors and focusing on that. I lost focus of God's will and plan for me, and when I did see it I didn't want to follow it because I knew it would result in me having to surrender what my heart longs for. I had to remember that God is a good Father. He hasn't placed desires in my heart just to squash them and laugh in my face when I cry. But this is another testing on my love for Him. Usually we are given a little then if we can handle it God gives us more. I feel it's the opposite for me. I want want and want, and so He poured out every possible desire right in front of me, knowing that I would have to learn the hard way. Because I didn't want to obey He gave me over to my wants Romans 3:28-32. Until a friend kicked me back into reality.

In order to pursue God I must close the three doors to open and go through the door God has prepared for me. This requires a sacrifice of my wants and a renewing of my mind. I can't want and conform to the world, but need to change the way I view my guy friends as brothers in Christ. My worship will be the surrendering of hope in a family to a hope in Christ. It is only when  we surrender and renew our minds that we can understand and know what God's good, perfect, and pleasing will is.

I know that I tend to last 3 weeks when I try to keep to a resolve, so I'll need more people keeping me accountable. I still need to obey joyfully too...so a continued heart issue

Between a rock and a hard place

My heart is always being torn in two directions. Hard decisions always seem to come in twos...well three if you count not choosing. No this isn't another struggling with sin, but where I should be going.

I've been in a Navigator bible study for 3 semesters and an Intervarsity one for 1 semester.
I've had qualms about both, and loved both.
But I guess I'm a little bias since my dad was a Navigator in college :)

After seeing what I thought was a need in Intervarsity for an upperclassman girls small group I prayed and applied for leadership. Originally I felt strongly for it. But more and more as I prayed I questioned if I was doing this because I was called or just because I saw a need. My heart is in the right place, and I just want to serve where God sees best. But I don't know where.

Every night I go to my Navigator bible study I fall more and more in love with the depth of the study (using the original Greek for words, finding old and new testament crossovers), how passionate the girls are for God's word, and just loving the community of believers. I see just a pure light in all of them and a genuine joy. I also see a lot of structure and clear set doctrines which makes me feel safe.

Is it selfish to say I want to stay in Navigators where I am starting to want to know more and possibly be more involved?

I know I can't because of the contract (hehe but I can still hang out and be friends with them :D). And because I don't want to be selfishly fed. I want the girls of AAIV to have a place like I did in Navigators where they can dig deep, be open and accountable, and bond as sisters.

So, here I am again stepping into the unknown, stuck between two places. I hope God gives Exec wisdom and discernment on where to place me.

puddle

I'm feeling really tired. Trying to make it through two exams this week after a very fun/busy spring break. Well I made it past that Organic Chemistry exam and feel pretty happy! But we will see. Goodness I work so hard and all that is to show of it is a big fat D.

Entomology exam is tomorrow and I can't bring myself to keep studying.

I'm wanting a lot of things and finding myself to be really needy. I'm getting frustrated with myself and the things I want but can't have. I just want to let my brain melt, and live life as a cnidaria and no worries. But that's selfish.

There's so much going on and I want to just curl up and let the world go on it's way to leave me behind.

I like to complain/vent a lot too.

I feel really selfish because I have no right to complain when other's have it so much worse.

Twice I've been encouraged today but can't cheer up.

Yea!!

This has been a great weekend :) Living with eyes open and focused, and there are blessings abundant!

Grace

It's not until after you've experienced the helpless state you're in, not until after you realize you don't have the power to do the right thing, that you realize the magnitude of grace. I never experienced the power of "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." until I experienced the helplessness of Romans 7. How does God still love me when I can't even stop doing the things I hate, and can't accomplish the things that are good? I was wracked with guilt all day and condemning myself, punishing myself for breaking boundaries and losing focus of the task God has entrusted me with. How can I lead girls when I'm broken? It's hard living in grace. I want to yell at myself and have someone scold me. But I don't have to punish myself...I shouldn't. Change yes. Just because there is grace I should not continue sinning so grace can continue to cover it. But punishing myself is just saying that Christ's death wasn't enough to pay for my sin, that I have to help pay as well.

Thank God for the people He places in my life! I was searching for a godly woman older in the faith, but too afraid to ask. He placed Meghan in my life. Never have I had to courage to share with a woman the pains and trails in my life. She accepted me with grace, showed mercy when the whole time I was waiting for her to condemn me. She gave me scripture to memorize in place of unrighteous thoughts, and used her spiritual gift of exhortation to pray over me.
I have every right to stand accused of wrong, but God does not accuse those who are in Him:

"But now He has reconciled you by Christ's physical body through death to present you as holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation" -Colossians 1:22

"For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you have received the spirit of sonship. And by him we cry "Abba, Father." The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. And if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory." -Romans 8:15-17

Live in peace, your hope is secured.

Incapable

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do-this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God-through Jesus Christ our Lord! 

So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." -Romans 7:15-8:2

Breakthrough-Day 2 Part 1 (Will Not Return Empty)

Saturday morning I woke up at 7:30am. I couldn't make it to prayer meeting but instead went to breakfast with Sharon, Nancy, and Katheryn. It was really nice getting to meet people of other fellowships. Haha we ended up all staring at me because they figured out I was a half-ling and somehow couldn't get over the fact.

8:30 was quiet time. We went to our Track room to get the questions which were:
1. What does God promise for those who seek Him?
2.What areas of sin or dissatisfaction in your life do you need to surrender to God?

Our passage was Isaiah 55:1-13

I was struck immediately with how generous our God is. If you're thirsty  and have nothing to offer, He'll offer you wine and milk without cost. Not just water but wine which is costly and milk which nourishes. If you are working in vain for bread that doesn't fill you then STOP. LISTEN to Him and eat what is good. Then "you will delight in the richest of fare." Listen, that you may live.

Verses 6-7 was what made me think for question 2.
"Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake their ways
and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on them,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon."

So, when I saw seek the Lord while he may be found, I knew that the Lord is always there. Why would Isaiah say seek Him while he can be found? The Lord never leaves His people! But I remembered myself. That I tend to forget the Lord is with me, so "while He may be found" is more of a state of heart for the audience. Seek God while your heart is open to Him. When God is working on your heart is when He feels nearest. Sometimes it's easy to close yourself off to Him especially when He confronts you about your sin. So seek Him while he is seeking you and listen to Him while he is near. If the wicked turn and seek the Lord and give up their unclean thoughts God promises mercy and a free pardon. That is a sweet promise. So there on the hill I decided to listen and obey. I am broken and have unrighteous thoughts. Lustful thoughts are something I've dealt with all my life, but at the offer of freedom and mercy I made a commitment to give these things to the Lord. I definitely still struggle and mess up, but it's a slow process. I lean on lust, when I don't trust that God will be good to me. But reading through Isaiah has led me to believe He truly is the only one we can trust. Because He never stops pursuing never gives us less than His best. He is a just God and there are consequences for sin, but there is also mercy and forgiveness. Which is more than the world or anything I can conjure up can offer.

God's ways and thoughts are higher than ours. Why He decides to feed the poor, why He decides to recognize people who continually deny Him, why He even acknowledges us dust in comparison to His glory, why he steps down to hold us dirty broken close to His heart...it's beyond me.

The end of the passage goes on to describe how when the rain falls it does not return to the sky until it has accomplished it's purpose. So is God's word. "so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." The result of this is we will go out in JOY and be lead forth in PEACE. Hills and mountains will burst out in song, and trees will clap their hands. This, the fact that God's word does not return empty that "he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ" (Phil 1:6), that his word will bring joy, and peace all is a testament to His glory and faithfulness.

Breakthrough-Day 1 (Learning humility)

"If though shalt hearken unto the voice of the Lord thy God, blessed shalt thou be in the city" -Deuteronomy 28:2,3

This was the promise God gave me Friday when I was doing my quiet time. If I should keep my ears open and listen to his voice and obey then there would be blessing.

Friday
I got to Breakthrough, which is a retreat with Intervarsity Christian fellowship. I was signed up for the Word II track (studying the book of Isaiah) hoping to learn more about WHO my God is and more of His character. First thing after worshiping in Spanish we started into studying Isaiah 40:6-24.Now reading Isaiah is slightly confusing yet very beautiful because it's like poetry. Some things are symbolic while others could be literal. So when the groups of us went to interpret the scripture we were told to let the clear verses clarify the foggy ones, to let the context of the passage clarify a verse (don't take stuff out of context!), and that scripture cannot mean what it couldn't mean (there should not be contradiction with what was previously said).

 I was instantly struck with how Holy our God is and how tiny we are in comparison in Isaiah 40. The people are described "like grass" which withers and our faithfulness "like the flowers" which fall. But Isaiah doesn't stop there he goes from saying you're like grass to "Surely the people are grass." The nations are called a drop in a bucket  compared to God. The nations are regarded as "dust on the scales" then he goes on to say you aren't just dust you're "fine dust". Our smallness was hammered in more when he says the "nations are nothing, they are regarded as worthless and less than nothing."

In comparison God is called Sovereign and powerful! He is considered a King in His power and how He rules. You cannot compare him to anything, He is immeasurable. The idols we create do nothing, and leave us searching for something that won't topple and disappoint us. Isaiah asks those who search for something to put their hope in if they have not heard about our God. "Do you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood since the earth was founded?" (Geez Isaiah) Trust God not our tiny idols, for God is Holy and powerful. Example creation: "He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, and it's people like grasshoppers. He stretches out the heavens like a canopy, and spreads them out like a tent to live in." He creates the stars in the sky and gives us small creatures a beautiful place to live :)

Though Isaiah shows the Holiness and greatness of our God and the smallness of us, he gives us one hope. That though we are regarded as less than nothing God treasures us. It says in verses 10-12 that he "tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young." Even in verse 15 Isaiah asks "Who held the dust of the earth in a basket" and the nations were compared to dust. Even though He has every right to look over Israel (who is at this time worshiping other gods and constantly unfaithful to God), He chooses to hold them close to his heart.
How much more so will He hold us? Or me, who constantly forgets the God I serve and am captured by the idols of self pride, grades, and approval from others.

Self

I still don't really feel like blogging. But I guess I must if I'm on here ?
So I made a decision, had an attitude and heart change on January 24, 2011.

Pure Friendship: No strings attached, no other motivations, building each other up in love, and encouraging each other to persevere in the faith.

It's been almost a week since I've decided this to be my goal for the year. My word is "pure" which is something I've kind of lacked my whole life. But as I reach almost one week, I find my heart faltering back to it's old ways.
"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?" -Jeremiah 17:9
But I will continue persevering, because no matter how we are tempted He always gives a way out.

Sunrise!

Woke up early to see the sunrise...the sun is very bright...how do people watch these things??
But it was pretty and very cold :) Not to mention all McFerrin blocked most of the sunrise. I'm tired now and must go to class bye!

How does this work ?

Trying to figure out if blogging is what I want to do? I created an account but couldn't get to it, so here I am with this 2nd 1st account!