First leg

Yea Happy 3 week anniversary!!! Let's see how things are 3-weeks after this...

I don't know how detailed I shall be on progress reports since I'm still dealing with the internal turmoil. But otherwise I've gotten to where about 80% of the time I view my guy friends as brothers. On the other hand when I think about the future I just feel sad and lost because I don't really want to do what I'm trying to do with the whole dental school thing. Just because of it being very helpful and practical ...which makes me still empty feeling towards a boring future.

Otherwise besides that. finals is killing me slowly. I've become a hermit that doesn't want to talk to people. Bah! Can't wait till that's over so I can be FREE!!!

Sometimes you can't go on until you see the purpose in things. Since I can't really see a purpose or end I'm trying to get to, I just have to keep stepping little at a time and hope that the future will be good.

Cork the Bottle

Working on re-establishing trust. I tend to be a very reserved person around strangers, but very open around friends. One of my problems is I tend to say everything on my mind and heart which includes things that are not mine to share. It feels like there are a lot of thoughts and emotions I'm corking up, but that's what I got to do so I can regain trust.

Baaa!!! I hate keeping secrets!

Light

Have you ever had a friend tell you a miracle? Have you ever had to turn your eyes away while your friend spoke because they were shining with Christ so brightly that it hurt to look? Not from pain, but from the beauty of the Lord. Have you ever heard God speak through a friend that made you burst into uncontrollable tears? 

I never had until today. And I never want to forget the light, the beauty, and the soft voice that says "I love you".